Showing posts with label Ups and Downs. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Ups and Downs. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

A Tale of Two Cities

My 3 babies who I LOVE to the moon & back!!

High School English class and given the assignment to read A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens...
I wasn't a big reader then...I relied on Cliff Notes to get me through my projects.  Annie, Jack, Sam...if you're reading this, do as I say, not as I did!  And now, I so regret that, because I've heard it is a well known novel! :) But what I do remember is the opening lines..."It was the best of times, it was the worst of times...it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of innocence", and so on...those lines have been playing over and over in my head lately as my family and I have been dealing with some "not so fun" grownup decisions...My husband and I began dating my Senior and his Junior year in high school 18 years ago, we graduated from college and he went on to pursue his oratory gift in law school and became an attorney and I pursued my love for children and taught Kindergarten.  One by one, we then began to have 3 healthy, beautiful children whom I have the ABSOLUTE pleasure and honor of being a stay-at-home mom to...DEFINITELY THE BEST OF TIMES!  But as you get older, I am finding, those "not so fun" decisions creep their way into your life, either by choice OR most of the time, on their own.  Unfortunately, as much as we don't want it to, money begins to play a big role in lots of these decisions...do we stay in a job that finds itself going in circles??  Do we sell a place that our future plans revolved around...which then in itself, leads to other questions...where will we go?  Where will our children go to school?  Can we uproot them or at what point in their schooling should we uproot them?  There are a lot more factors involved than what I listed, or it definitely would not seem like "the worst of times" were very bad at all.  I just keep going back to the question of how can this be??  How could we have planned and prepared and done all the right things only to get to this point, where we feel conflicted at praying for guidance and answers on what to do, yet see such heartbreak felt by other families for various reasons and look in the faces of our children and feel like the RICHEST people on Earth??    
That's my question to THROW OUT into the universe!  

My best girlfriend, Monica and another sweet friend, Jennifer have encouraged me to start blogging!  I never thought I had much to really "blog" about, and certainly never intended for my first entry to be sooooo dramatic, but it was something that needed to get out!!  I'm hoping to feel connected to other's more by sharing more of myself in this non-intrusive way, because generally, I'm a pretty shy person, who usually just stands back and listens!  I think this will be a fun adventure!